~S.H.A.T.T.E.R.E.D~

2005-04-14T07:17:00.000-07:00

I damn damn hate myself at times.

y am i getting myself in d same situation
AGAIN?

I thought i could handle.

But

I

Lost.

2005-04-12T06:27:00.000-07:00

Promised to call
But never.

I wished he leave me alone.
Never to call again.

But

I been checking my hp
like 10000 times a day.

And when he does,
i be so...
happpy.

I hate to be hanged there.

Hah..

Why is forgetting someone so difficult?

2005-04-06T03:44:00.000-07:00

Something I Found...

Love the girl in your heart, not in your mind. If you base your relationship on feelings, it will fail for there are ups & downs in feelings. Girls are there to be loved, not toyed around.

Love her for who she is. Don't even think about changing any bit about her. 6 billion people in this world & 6 billion different personalities. She's special & she will stay that way. You change any part of her, you'll change her forever. Don't
substitute her for anyone else, they are just unique in their own ways.

Love whole-heartedly. She sacrificed a lot for you so you'd better really treassure her. She could have just got up & date a so much more dashing guy in town but she chose you instead all because of love. So love her guys, not play with her.Don't just get the girl to beg you to stay or whatsoever. If you're with her, love her.

Don't cause a strain in the relationship, you'll end up loving each other out of pity or charity, that's not respecting love at all. Respect love the way it is & everything will be the best it can be. I've been there & I know how it feels.

Don't expect perfection from her. She's the only one in the world & she's done the best she could.

Like another girl while you're in a relationship? Then I think it's time you remain single for a while. Don't go around breaking girls' hearts, it's the most tragic thing to do.

Tell the truth, never hide anything from her. If you want her to tell you everything, do the same.

Don't go calling other girls "honey" or "darling", how would it feel if your girl calls other guys the same way? Be faithful, enough is enough.

Socialise only when you're single. You socialise & flirt around is to get the girl of your dreams. Get it over when she's already yours, don't ask for more.

It never kills to be romantic. Think, be flexible.Getting that diamond ring isn't the only gift for her. Be realistic, she's human & she lives life just like you. Something sweet & simple always get the job done.

Money doesn't exist between couples, it's the love.

Never promise her that you'll love her forever because your forever might end the next day. Love her as if each day is the last.

Sweet talking only applies for singles, not for attached guys. Do that & you'll really break your girl's heart.

It isn't good being too well-known too, it'll give her a sense of insecurity. Remember, INSECURITY.

Promise her & make sure you never break the promise. Swear to her & make sure you live up to your word. Pledge your love to her & her alone.

Loving her is giving her your heart to break it but trusting her not to. Same goes for her,giving u her heart means allowing u to break it and trusting u
not to. Instead, she'll cherish it & protect it. Should'nt you do the same thing as well? That's love.

Give her your heart, your life, your everything. Lay down your life & prepare to die for her when the need arises. But stay strong & live through another day, she can never live without you.

Never, ever walk out of her life. She won't just cry her heart out & carry on living as per normal, she'd die.

Its her heart that you've broken, how would you ever know how she feels?

Winning a girl's heart isn't the final victory. Don't leave her once you've won her love. Love her all the way till the end of time, love her till marriage, love
her till old age, love her till death. If you can love her till the end of time, you've earned the honor & respect for you've truly loved her.

She chose you because she believes that you can fulfil your promise. Win her heart back & love her all over again.

2005-04-06T03:30:00.000-07:00

What m i doing?

Seriously..
I really dont know what m i doing anymore.

I did something that i know i wld regret forever.
Something i know if doesnt go right,
i be hurt.
Big time in fact.

So.what the hell man?
Im no longer sure,
how i feel abt myself anymore.

No longer that least bit of confidence in myself.

Pretending to be that old cheerful me..
that m okie with things thats happening..
or rather that had happened.

Taking care of his well being..
Oh Man.

Sometimes i really wanna kill him
then stab myself.

Got to admit.
i fell hard this time round.

"Whatever doesnt kills me..only make me stronger.."

How true?

bottomline..
im a loser can.

even my friendster a/c is turning its back on me...can even reply / view any PMs..wtF..

2005-04-04T01:41:00.000-07:00

He said something that really hurts.
Bl**DY hurtful in fact.

I shall not care anymore.
Neither be so bothered with his well being.

For what?

Sometimes i really wanna kill myself.

2005-03-30T04:54:00.000-08:00

Oohh...

been nearly two mths.

Lots happened. Life been like a roller coaster ride..
Too fast in fact.

That

Magical feeling.

Happiness.

Sweet.

Disappointed.

Angry.

Upset.

Confused.

Shattered.

....

2005-03-23T02:07:00.000-08:00

Been more than a mth since i last updated..
Too many things happened..

Good and bad..
Happy and Sad.

Remember in my prev post,
i mentioned that whenever im upset,
i will cut my hair..

haaa...

i did it again.
and i got no wish to explain what happen.

Hmm

2005-02-17T17:27:00.000-08:00

I certainly hope that i didnt meet another mindfucker.

Love Always,

Hazel ?

A quick one..

2005-02-15T17:54:00.000-08:00

M damn lazy to post the photos from HK..
Duhz.
Anyway how Valentine's Day?
hope you guys had fun!

Mine was boring,
slacking at home.
what else?

But come and think abt it,
its good too,
not having to join the crowd outside.
not to mention the bl**dy hot sun.
Staying indoor.
Zzz..

What could be better?

Okie fine...

I ADMIT

Im jealous..Lolz..
What rubbish..

Anyway,gtg..
needto get some stuff done.
be back later to blog a little more.

Before i go..

Pic of the day..

Haha..

thats yours truely me and Chris..
actng stupid after supper in HK.

Hope it brighten your day. *winkz*

Cheerio..

Love Always,

Hazel d ??

2005-02-12T22:02:00.000-08:00

BORED!

I seriously think that i am losing interest in blogging.
maybe i shld stop.

Gosh.

Love Always,

"i am so bored" Hazel

Im Back..!

2005-02-08T23:20:00.000-08:00

Hey guys!

Am back finally.

Actually back since last Monday.
BUT
lazy me.
Don't feel like updating anything.

Anyway,a quick one..
HongKong was a blast!
Weather was good,food was yummy,shopping was OKAY.
(note i said okay,coz i didnt buy much..winter wear all ard)

M looking forward to dinner tonight..
Drooling liao..
Okie,i admit i put on weight,esp in HK..

But..

Fu*k it.

ITS CNY..

What will you guys be doing tmr?
Busy collecting Angbaos?
Well,collect many many i hope!hee..

Hmm..will post HK pictures when i got the time.
Kinda rush now,coz got some last min thingy to settle b4 dinner..

But before i go,
In view that its CNY,
here is a pic i took in HongKong

A table of yummy food!

Love Always,

Hazel d "Ah Bui"

No Time..

2005-01-27T17:08:00.000-08:00

okie,
9am in the morning and im already up.
*clap clap*

Surprise surprise?

given my usual pattern,
on my off days,i will try to slp in.

I admit that im getting lazier to blog recently..
partly also coz of the fustration i get when my long post just disappear.
and i can never write the same thing again.

Okie..
Enuff said,i got lotsa to blog,

but no time though..
i bloody got like 1hr,
to pack and bath.
WTF

K,
be back in 5days guys..
till then..

Love Always,

"Mei Shi Jian!!!" Hazel

@$($@$#&$@#)(?

2005-01-18T04:21:00.000-08:00

Seriously..
its' getting on my nerves.

Another long post i did..
to update on things.

AND

it cant b published.

KNNBCCB x10

Love Always,

"Pui Pui Pui!" Hazel

Just a quick one..

2005-01-16T08:29:00.000-08:00

After so long,
i found the one.

yup..
But timing kinda screwed up.
It came at the wrong time.
Maybe somethings are just not meant to be.?

whatever.

I dont wanna think abt it.

Love Always,

"when will it be d right time?" Hazel

KNNBCCB

2005-01-13T18:13:00.000-08:00

430am in the morning
and i just came back from Zouk.
Cant sleep yet.

Happily typed this long post..
Yeah..the longest i ever typed for the past few weeks.
And

KNNBCCB.

IT HANG.

SHIT.

Love Always,

"&?*&^!~#@!@" Hazel

Rain Rain...come or go?

2005-01-12T22:06:00.000-08:00

Ever wonder what will happen if it really rains???

Are u Ready....?????

TATA!...

haha...
no idea what am i thinking abt when i decided to post this though..;p

Love Always,

"boh liaoness is killing me!"Hazel

2005-01-08T02:55:00.000-08:00

time flies.
this long week is finally almost finished.
Working like non stop this week.
Only thing i did apart from working,
was watching Kungfu Hustle.
And visiting the doctor..(if thats counted)

My throat is hurting like shit.
nose blocked like a choked sink.

Cant breathe,cant talk..
Practically gasping for air through my mouth.

I hate the feeling of not being able to taste the food im eating.
Like NOW.

Everything tasted like plain water to me.
Even chilli doesnt seem spicy.
haha..
my tongue is not right...:p

Its terrible.

BLAH.

Love Always,

"where's my taste buds!?" hazel

2005-01-07T07:15:00.000-08:00

My 2nd Post of the day...

SHE Concert Tmr...

Though am not a big fan of SHE,
Kinda like the colourful poster.

Gona cook barley now..
to drink.
my throat is killing moi..

Love Always,

hazel "sexy voice"..

2005-01-07T01:11:00.000-08:00

Changed my blog alittle..
Just halfway through though..
But decided to post up some stuff 1st..

Here you go..
Some really belated photos from Xmas..

Celebration over two days for different teams at work.

The people...

RED Team..

And..

WHITE Team

The Food...

Revealing of Xmas Santa..

Samuel to Jonny..

Jonny to Juliana

Mark to Jerilyn

Liang opening his present from me.

The "Organisers"

My Team Leaders!

Finally...

Proudly Presents...

The Picture of the Year...

Lastly,

Just for entertainment...

Me acting stupid with Samuel..

Gtg get some stuff done 1st.
To get my medication.
My flu and sore throat simply refuses to go away.
be back later to post more..

Love Always,

hazel "the joker"..

2005-01-05T23:46:00.000-08:00

I got no time to update anything now.
too much to do..
too little time..

Down with a flu and sore throat.
And i cant reply to any msg in my friendster.
What is wrong?
sometimes it really gets on my nerves!

Beginning of a new year..
tons of things waiting for me.

Pics to upload..
blogskin to change..
blog songs to fixed(old host is closed).

Anyway,
Kung Fu Hustle was a blast. =)

Kinda drowsy after my medication.
gonna take a nap..
will try to fix things tonight..

Till then...
Just a pic from Xmas..

The RED team!

Love Always,

"my nose is dropping!"hazel..

Happy New Year!

2005-01-01T07:55:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year!

No matter how you guys might be feeling..
whatever shit or nonsense you guys went through during the past yr..
I hope 2004 been a good one..
And that 2005 be even better.

I cant wait for 2005..
But same time,
i cant bear to leave 2004.

Party poppers just went off in the office..
Tata..

There you go..

Happy New Year.

But m not least excited abt it.

I guess i just cant let go.

Love Always,

The &@$^(@*#&*@hazel..

Thoughts

2004-12-30T02:58:00.000-08:00

2004 is coming to an end..
tmr is NY's eve.
Time really flies...

Looking back at the past year,
sad to say i didnt achieve much.
Except for maybe putting on some weight?haha..
Too much things happened this year..
lotsa changes..
to myself..
things ard me...
I hitted the big "2"
no big deal though,
just getting OLD

Been more adventurous ..
changing stylish from stylish..
Cutting my long rebonded hair short.
finally i think i found the best..
Think shall stick to him.
At least for the time being.

I learnt,
through painful incidents,
on how to take things easy and to go.
at least for now..
I used to be a silly one..
who cling on to things.
For that i give myself a pat.

I decided that i shall not make any New Year Resolution this year,
coz for the past few years..
i didnt managed to achieve any.
Haha..
NO DETERMINATION.
What can i say??

How's you guys celebrating tmr?
due to operational needs,
yours truly me will be at work.

AWWwWwww..

How "NICE" huh?
Lets just hope that calls be good tmr...for everyone at work.
ppl out there,enjoy yourself,
be it at home or whatever.
Stop calling in okie?

I thought i could sleep in alittle tmr..
since i dont have to work at 11am.
BUT.
My dear mummy just crushed my dream,
last min tingy..
i got to send her to the airport tmr at 10am.
WTF.
There goes my ZzZzzz.ZZZz..
BUT i know i will miss her.
Hmm..
Hopefully i can survive tmr at work..
with that miserable amt of Zzz i gona get tonight.

Anyway,i guess i gonna stop here.
Cant think of anything eles to blog.

Love Always,

d tired hazel..

I Need More...

2004-12-28T02:42:00.000-08:00

Hmm...as my title suggests..
i need more...
But the big ?
more of what??

Eh...
more time,more sleep,more $,more OT,more fun..
Everything...expect for FATZ.
i been putting on weight liao..S**T

I been losing my nose studs recently
(see,even nose studs..i need more)
that i seriously think that i shld start stocking up.

Sounds ridiculous?
Well its not.
Whenever i wash my face,i have that tendency of rubbing my nose,
and

Wala!

ShhHhhhZszz..

down the sink the stud goes.
If not,i will remove my nose stud and place it wherever convenient.
Hmm..
this is bad..
I have that stupid habit of losing things..
and its a pain in the ass,
coz the more i buy..
the more i lose.
A**.

Anyway,m off tmr,
gona catch Kung Fu Hustle..( hopefully)

Oh well,
still think is i shld get my tragus pierced.
yeah.

INDECISIVE.
trait of a Libran.

hmm.....

Hmmm...this seem to be the season to get attached..
more and more of my gfs are getting attached..
thats means less time for me..
Then again,
i been getting lotsa friends with BGR prob..
and its bad..
coz i hate seeing my friends,
upset over such things.

M glad,that i dont face such probs..
at least for now..

Btw,in case you guys dont know,
my Taiwan trip in Jan is cancelled.
Kinda sad..

BUT...

the
GOOD
news is..

I be going somewhere else..

hee....

and i cant wait to go..

Gtg,need to get a good cup of coffee.
Nw headache is killing me.

Love Always,

d needy hazel..

Happy Boxing Day

2004-12-26T07:10:00.000-08:00

Okie...after my nice dinner of soup,
m feeling a little better..
to blog.

How's Christmas guys?
Had fun i hope..:)
Though Christmas is now just another over-commercialised holiday,
with all that sale of Christmas stuff,
I still enjoyed mine.
Gatherings with my old friends..
potluck at work with my team..
that kinda feeling...
something so nice..
that i hasnt get for a long time.

Got nice presents from my friends..
2 necklaces,2 keyrings...bag...pouch...and the list goes on..
so sweet of them.Hee..
Hopefully they love what i got them too.

Waterbottles seem to be in trend for this yr gift exchange,
I got 2 waterbottles..
haha..
and i bought two for my colleagues too..

hmm..

waterbottle LELONG sale??

I been thinking so much the past few days..

A colleague of mine said to me one day:
If i did my part,
and he/she refuses to accept it,
wats the point?
At least i did my part..
and im only making myself feel like shit.

Juliana best..

she said:

" Girl,its no big deal!"

I didnt really thought much into that statement..
until like two days ago..

Nobody in this world CANNOT live without that somebody.

How true...

Gtg,think i gona have a gd night sleep..
hasnt been sleeping well for the past few days
with all the partying,food..

Remember?
i have the body of a 50yrs old..hee..
Bite me.:p

Love Always,

Hazel d "old woman"..

Just a Short Note...

2004-12-26T03:14:00.000-08:00

If you guys realised,
my blog songs arent working.
In fact its the case for all my other friends' blogs..
The host that i used to upload my blog songs is closed..
Now i gotta look for another alternative to upload my songs..
hmm..
bear with me yeah. .

Hope i can get it done SOON..

Lotsa things to update..

BUT

Not in the mood to blog now,coz my stomach is rumbling now..

be back later,to blog more.
time for a nibble though..

I BE RIGHT BACK..

Love Always,

"Hungry woman is an angry woman"aka Hazel..

Pui..Pui..PUI..

2004-12-23T05:53:00.000-08:00

Shit..this is bad,
my last post on the famous eyebrow shaper disappeared for no reason.
Sometimes i really hate this,and found that my blog songs isnt working..
and not only mine,my friends' blogs too..
Is there something wrong with blogger?

Anyway,
the Mango sale starts today,
and the crowd is crazy.
Long queue outside the store,
yup,is so crowded that you have to queue to enter the store.
Even have to put your stuff into this plastic bag and they will tightened it with
sone string or something,
so as to prevent shoplifting.

I thought i be able to grab maybe a few casual tops...
then looking at the crowd,
i decided my faint heart wun be able to take it....
I swear there are more than 1 dozen of aunties squeezing and grabbing whatever they saw.
Sometimes i really wonder,
are they sure they are able to fit into it?
i mean,sizes wise might not be correct
and they are grabbing blindly.
even those at the cashiers...eh..nvm..

was out the whole day since 10am,usual me shld still be ZzZzzz away,
but got no choice i have yet to finish my Xmas shopping..
walked and walked..
for 11hrs,till 9pm..before i got myself onto a cab and came home shagged.
and i mean shagged.
imagine walking for 11hrs!?
just looking for presents?
and i didnt buy alot.
only got like 3 or 4?? ( NOTE:i am helping my friend get those)

Okie maybe not 11hrs of walking,
coz i went for a haircut and that lasted for an hr..
hmm...my hair is getting shorter and shorter..
duno why am into cutting my hair recently if ya realised.
had cut my hair like 3 times in less than 2mths..
but i kinda like my new hair though.
haha...
think im recovering well...from my fatigue...
beginning to feel more like a 20yrs instead of 50. *fingers crossed*

I wanted to get this CD which i have bought recently for a friend for Christmas.
Its actually the the Best Collection of Hotel Costes series
its nice....
Do give it a try..:)

but its

OUT OF STOCK.

I went to like 5 shops and i couldnt get it.
Any "suayier" can i get?

Ended up getting Hotel Costes Vol 7 instead.
Hmm...
hope its gd and that she will like it..

Anyway gtg guys....
need to get my stuff ready for tmr..
having potluck at work.
making brownies..

Have a fun Xmas eve!

Love Always,

"faint heart" Hazel..

This is getting TERRIBLE

2004-12-21T02:58:00.000-08:00

Was running through the name list i made for Christmas and
discovered that i missed out on some friends..
which is kinda terrible coz i have got no time.
My list is forever growing and it never seems to stop there..just THERE..

I missed out on so much sleep the past few weeks..hee..
but its okay,coz i make up alittle for it..yup...
just a little for sleeping a straight 16hrs today!
Yap,i didnt got for my facial..
i decided the weather is too hot,
and staying in my airconditioned rm is d

BESssssT!

I weighed myself,i been putting on weight,
since my exams started.
Wonder y?
Thanks to bar after bar of chocolates..

ice cream after ice cream..

sweet stuff..

Yah,i have a sweet tooth,and its like the cancerous stage when im stressed.
My teeth are like thermometer,not for temperature,but to test the level of stress.
they are practically crying and begging for sweet stuffs (*chocolates...chocolates...come...come..)

Thats not all,
if things arent bad enough:

I been feeling tired easily recently,
half a day of shopping is enough to kill.thats so unlike me..
now that im 20yrs old,i feel like im 50..
i can even foresee what will i be like when im 50yrs old..

I BE FAT OLD AND UGLY.

* loose skin
* wrinkled face and hands
* cellulite covered legs
* flabby arms
* big ass

Goodness..

Call me a Pig.

This is scary.
People say thinking of food will make one fat..
In case it works for everything,
i better stop thinking,before it comes true.

okie..shall change the topic...
If you guys noticed,i changed my blog again...
( thats a stupid qns huh..guess unless you are blind otherwise wld have noticed it!;p)
Pls select whatever songs u will like to play while reading my blog,
had uploaded 4 songs,more be coming
prehaps i shld add in a few Christmas songs?
to add on the festive mood?

This is how my house shld look like in future...

Ooohh....

Not bad huh...

or how abt this??

haha...what a dreamer i am.
M suffering from PES wondering what the hell that is?

Here you go...

it stands for.....

POST

EXAMS

SYNDROME

haha...

blame it on my stupid papers..
But dont worry,I
m recruperating well..
with that amount of great sleep.
now i just need some retail threapy..hmm...not a bad idea huh?

BUT

one important factor though..
trust me,its really an important factor....

Dun believe ??

I have ...

got...

NO VITAMIN M.
(told ya its impt)

So dont think so much hazel..wakie wake!

Love Always,

Hazel,d "great thinker"..

HmMmMm...

2004-12-20T05:40:00.000-08:00

(ya listening to Sea Of Faces)

Nice song that ya listening too...
happen to come across it just now in town..

done with a little Xmas shopping.
Was shopping at Adidas when i saw my ex bf..
he looked quite different now,think he put on a little weight.
then again..he still looks cute....

bought a shirt,2 water bottles and 1 jacket from Adidas for my friends.
And bag from projectshop for my cousin who's bdae is in 2days time..
Also an Ipod holder for a friend who be getting an ipod soon..
think it will come in handy for him!
I kinda like it..thinking if i shld get one myself...? Shall take a picture of it soon and will post here.
Gt some candies and chocolates too, for my younger sister and brother..
Went supermarketing too,bought strawberries and some baking stuff for Christmas.
Huh...hopefully i have time..

M going for facial tmr,hasnt been going for sometime and already paid for it,so die die must go.
And i desparately need to pamper myself alittle..for studying so hard the past few weeks that my "BEST FRIENDS" (read pimples) are visiting me and refuses to go..
think its a gd way..though its kinda painful..
Thinking of getting my tragus pierced.hmm...shld i?

Here is some heathly stuff that my friend sent me,coz i been on lotsa coffee to keep me awake to study..thanks sweet!
think shld share with you guys..
Some Recipe for healthy juices!

Carrot + Ginger + Apple
Boost and cleanse our system.

Apple + Cucumber + Celery
Prevent cancer, reduce cholesterol, and improve stomach upset and headache.

Tomato + Carrot + Apple
Improve skin complexion and bad breath.

Bitter gourd + Apple + Milk
Avoid bad breath and reduce internal body heat.

Orange + Ginger + Cucumber
Improve skin texture and moisture and reduce body heat.

Pineapple + Apple + Watermelon
To dispel excess salts, nourishes the bladder and kidney

Apple + Cucumber + Kiwi
To improve skin complexion.

Carrot + Apple + Pear + Mango
Clear body heat, counteracts toxicity, decrease blood pressure and Fight oxidization

Honeydew + Grape + Watermelon + Milk
Rich in vitamin C + Vitamin B2 that increases cell activity and Strengthen body immunity.

Papaya + Pineapple + Milk
Rich in vitamin C, E, Iron. Improve skin complexion and metabolism.

Banana + Pineapple + Milk
Rich in Vitamin with nutritious and prevent constipation.

Sounds delicious huh!?

Try it!

Now that im almost done with shopping for all my friends..
think its time to shop for myself..
Hmm..
hee..
too many things i want..
too many many..
most imptly,
i want something that $ cant buy...

i want...........?

Love Always,

D "what do i want?" hazel..

I HATE pimples,but they LOVE me!

2004-12-19T21:14:00.000-08:00

(ya listening to Emotions by Destiny Child)

Too stressed recently..
My "FAVE" friends,pimples are visiting me..
and i hate them.

Went to Mrs Ong Hse yest,met up with my ex schmates..everyone looked so diff now.
Kinda missed the times we had in sch..

Almost done with my Christmas shopping...
Just 2more to go...
and YEAH.DONE!!

Gona buck up a little though,cards not done!!

Love always,

"pimpley" hazel...shit shit shit.

UrGhhhhhh.....

2004-12-16T05:44:00.001-08:00

(ya listening to Emotions by Destiny Child)

This is bad,Christmas is next Sat and i have not gotten my Christmas presents..
Hmm..
Having potluck at work next week with the PT team,and will need to get something for gift exchange..
its giving me a headache,coz have got no idea what to get for "him" (read:the one i have to get for,we draw names..)

Anyway i gotten the following..:

Cranberry Body butter from Body Shop..
For a gf..*smells yummy*

I got the Stila eyecolour duo..
a gift from friend..so nice!

AND

Love..

This!!

lip palette from MAC..
with crystals on the casing..
i like the purple one..
How nice..
though i dont really need it..;p

Hmm...now i gotta think have to think what to get for my brother..
maybe..a cap or something?

Love always,

no time liao hazel...!

What D hell am i Doing??

2004-12-15T13:50:00.000-08:00

(ya listening to Emotions by Destiny Child)

Shld be studying, but here i am,
changing my blog layout,surfing the net.
Slacking ard..

Hasnt touch my books for the last 2days..
this is bad..
really bad..

No self control,
No mood to study..
Full on crappy thoughts..
(Whats wrong with ya hazel??)

Getting a little looney i think..
too stressed..haha..

Anyway,found my old photo taken last year..

erm...
think i look so ugly,permed hair..
was fatter then..
(no better now though;p)

Whatever....
la la la....

Love always,

the looney? hazel...

Eh....

2004-12-14T14:46:00.000-08:00

(ya listening to Emotions by Destiny Child)

My younger brother got enlisted today.
Time really files,
he is already 18.

Though we quarrel quite a fair bit,
and m sometimes really irritated with him..
but i know he cares for me and i feel the same way too.
Now that he is gone,
away in camp,
think will kinda miss him and his nonsense.
think i will even miss quarreling with him.

Guess thats life..

Well,to make myself happier,
here's more pics of Jay that my friend sent to me...

Love always,

Missing his nonsense already,
hazel

Christmas is Coming

2004-12-11T04:10:00.000-08:00

(ya listening to Brian Adams' Everything i do(i do it for you)

Am glad there is something to do
to get my mind off things..
at least for awhile..
and thats to get my gifts ready..
Coz Christmas is coming.

I enjoy Christmas shopping lotsa,
walking in town,
hunting and searching for pressies for all my darlings.
Tiring it might be,
i think its all worth it.

Got lotsa to do,coz i just started and my shopping,
and managed to only get 5 gifts..got like another 10 or so to go!?
I hope m in time though...

Love always,
hazel d loser..

~????~

2004-12-10T18:48:00.000-08:00

(ya listening to Hero)

Life really sux..
Big time in fact.
I thought i could handle it
Whatever be coming
I knew i was wrong,
when no reply came after sending that sms for hrs.
Now i regreted..
why the hell did i send that for?
isnt things kinda okie( in my dreams...)
why shld i be so affected?
Why? why? why?
I simply hate it when things are like this.
When it SHLD'NT be.

Aaron once told me,
Do not change the way im coz of what others says..
and to remember..
ALWAYS BE TRUE TO YOURSELF.

Somehow or rather,i got to admit that i did changed alittle after all that happens..
I dont know how to go abt handling whats coming my way.
And if being nice and doing things for others resulted in what's happening right now,
i wish i could turn back time,and never do all those things i did.

I jollywell know that im deceiving myself,
acting like a fool,
doing all the nonsense..
come and think abt it..
it might not be worth it at all..
or put it in a way..
its not gona help..

Sometimes i hope she reads my blog..
so she knows how am i feeling abt things..
its difficult to put it across to her..
Then again..
i MIGHT not really want her to read my blog...

Bottomline is,

i am a loser...

on a lighter note...
look at what i found..

Yup,its Jay..
kinda like the 2nd picture..

Love always..
the upset hazel..

~I Tried...~

2004-12-09T23:57:00.000-08:00

I mustered my courage and sms her.
Its after like more than 3weeks after what had happened,i tried smsing her,
trying to create a conversation.
it didnt work,we stopped after 2sms.
That hostile feeling is there,that she is trying to keep a dist from me..
I thought that time will heal things,
and prove things...
but then again on 2nd thoughts
i guess i am really wrong....
Things will never i guess be the same again..

Have got no idea why is she doing this..
I tried understanding from her point..
But guess i cant..
M tired..
Really tired..
as much as this meant to me..
there is nothing i can do...

Prehaps i shld just tell her all these..
or prehaps i shld just forget abt it and buried it somewhere..

Which One?

2004-12-09T16:43:00.000-08:00

I saw this online....kinda like it...
and its cheap..but cant decide on the colour though...

Shld i get...

This...??

This?

OR.....
This??

What do you think??
Really bored at home with all the studying and NO OT.guess you guys can tell,coz this is my 3rd entry of the day! -_-"

~Bah Kuah...Love it?~

2004-12-09T16:18:00.000-08:00

"Bee Cheng Hiang" heard of it??
yes,its that shop,selling "Ba Kuah" (read bbq pork)... the one with employees in yellow uniform,with Zoe Tay in advertisment during Chines New Year that goes: " Mei zhen Xiang,ehmmm....hao chi!"
Recall??
in case u dont know what m i talking abt...here u go..

Now,get what i mean??
I kinda like them though...i know its extremely sinful...but i cant really be bothered..
there are many different types:
The normal Square ones...(like abv),the minced pork(i prefer that,coz its softer),chili flavoured,beef,chicken....and the list goes on....

Ever wonder how does "Ba Kuah" come abt?ingredients and everything?
Well,i think 1st of all of coz,u need PIG or rather PORK..
imagine,killing a boar...the screeching made by it....cries and everything...before removing its skin.covered with disgusting hair..
chopping it into small pieces,before slicing them into thin slices....
seasoning it with sauces...
and then finally onto the grill....the sizzling sound....ohhh...
fats oozing out.....and slowly parts of the piece of meat turning dark...and burnt slowly...
( friends who noes "CN" disgusting huh..;p)

M sorry...for being so evil..i better stop.

Some Old Photos I Found

2004-12-09T16:14:00.000-08:00

Was sorting through my emails and found these......

Have got more,but kinda lazy to post them...maybe another day??

~Yummy Yummy~

2004-12-08T03:21:00.000-08:00

Changed my blog today,how do you like it?;p

Oh yeah,something to share..

Look at what i received on my email....

Yup....

its the Taiwan " Mang Guo Ping" (read mango ice!)

now i cant wait to go....

MEMORIES..

2004-12-07T03:10:00.000-08:00

Memories..
something that will be with me,something that im sure everyone of us have...be it good or bad.
Some people chose to only remember good memories,some people chose not to remember anything.
What abt you??

For me,i chose to remember BOTH.but why?
The good and sweet,never fails to bring back fond thoughts and smile on my face,remembering the bad serve as a lesson to me,to always remember things that i shldnt have done,or rather i shld have done.
I always believe that it will make me a better person.

Was running through my stuff and found this box that i used to keep letters and cards from friends,yes...every one of them..
I enjoy reading them once in awhile when im free,its really nice and sweet to know that i have friends who send my cards every year on my birthday and on festive occasions.
Though sending an e-card is so much more convenient,i seriously prefer receiving it thru snail mail...call be old fashioned,outdated...whatever..its just me.:)

Oh yeah,people who reads my blog,will appreciate if you guys can leave a tag?thankie..:P

Personality Test

2004-12-03T04:46:00.000-08:00

The body part where you love to kiss most reflects your personality type!

Please choose the body part you love to kiss most:

1) Forehead
2) Eyes
3) Nose
4) Face
5) Ear
6) Lips
7) Neck

If you chose....

Forehead:
You have a strong passion for life and at the same time a peaceful nature. Though you are a forgiving person, you demand respect from other people. Your talents are expressed well and you have good interpersonal skills. As such, you have a fulfilling social life and you friends around you will find you to be gentle and understanding.

Eyes:
You are die-hard Romeo who requires lots of love and y ou can sacrifice everything for love as well. You express your love in a wild and passionate way. However, you are equally capable of becoming a vicious lover, manipulating your partner to achieve certain selfish goals.

Nose:
In a relationship, sex is something essential to you! You value friendship, loyalty and you have a strong desire for love and sex. You are playful by nature and you cannot stay long at a place without feeling uneasy. As a result, it is very difficult for you to establish a strong foundation for your career and it is advisable that you do not change your job with no strong reasons.

Face:
You value peace above all other things and friends are very important to you. You willingly share all your prized possessions with them and you are not easily bothered if you are short-changed. Also, you have a kind heart and you try not to harbor bad thoughts about o ther people. Maintaing a long lasting and affectionate relationship is your forte.

Ear:
As a very understanding a person's mind. You posses a disposition to appreciate or share the feelings and thoughts of others. However, you can also be someone who cracks jokes at the expense of others and in wanting to achieve your goals, you can easily sacrifice others. Towards relationships, you are not affected by emotional constraints and is very expressive. Your behavior is 100% congruent with your inner feelings.

Lips:
You are someone who is governed by a great sense of loyalty. When you kiss someone's lips, you are actually expressing the hope of having one true love. Always radiating an aura of confidence, you are someone with very strong moral codes.

Neck:
Flirtatious by nature, you are unlikely to be someone that dreams of everlast ing love. Although your passion for things is very strong, it fades away in just a while. Even when you are no longer in love with your partner, you selfishly demand him/her to love you still. You are unlikely to have great ambitions towards your own life and you are not particular about gender roles.

So...which is yours???

Jay Chou

2004-11-29T14:48:00.000-08:00

Blogging less recently coz been kinda busy... and not really in the mood to blog.those really close to me,will noe what happened..
Plus my computer is giving me prob..and I cant really use it at home..damn irritating. ..have deleted my whole desktop..PUI
Jay concert was good.Really impressed by his performance, lotsa improvement compared to his prev concerts that I went to.
Audience were really high,and those sitting ard me were all standing up.Except for me and aaron.eh... paiseh lah,this kinda thing.
We belong to those who will just sit down and enjoy the show itself… Image to maintain u see..Heehee..
Don't understand why do ppl have to eat in concerts?holding the bloody smelly hotdogs..
know wats worse??they digging their nose and eating away!??
Edging closer and closer to you..
Pls send them back,to where they belong.
Someone,pls ...

2004-11-29T03:21:00.000-08:00

I discovered that whenever i feeling upset or hurt,i will do something to myself..
Like cutting my hair..
I mustered my courage and did something..finally..

Sometimes i really wonder..
Isit wrong to be nice to ppl ard ya?
why is ppl behaving like i want something for being nice to them?
Its just in me,i love my friends,all of you guys.
BUT
that doesnt mean i want something else,or to put it plainly..to start a relationship.
SO why??
why that thinking?
its upsetting..coz things arent the same as before,
ya avoiding me,keeping distance away from me..
no more phone calls neither sms from ya asking how's my day..
And i hate it...coz i dont think i deserved all that..
OR
Prehaps i DO deserved it...

Prehaps..

Prehaps...

2004-11-25T15:53:00.000-08:00

Mambo night yesterday,was down in Zouk with Aaron,liang JD..looking at the way ppl danced,can really be entertaining,all sorts of funny movements..shaking so hard,practically like trying so hard to shake their fats off...M sorry if i sound evil,but its true.I mean yes,ya supposed to be like dancing away drowning yourself in the music,but....ermm....sometimes its just isnt really pleasing to eyes..;p
Wasnt really too fun last night though,coz duno really like Retro.
Met up with Aaron earlier part of the day wanted to catch "Saw" but no tickets available,only left with 1st row,not wanting to end up with a sore neck,we decided not too..Saw this Adidas jacket and m totally in love with it! Its white with baby blue strips,exactly the same colour combi for as the white Adidas watch..Ohh...so NICE...
Had dinner at Marche with him,Donna,Sammi and ivanmark,we then wanted to catch a movie,but i guess,its just not our day lah,no tix too..oh well...Singapore is just plain boring...
Oh ya,be going off for hols again,with Aaron..planning to go in Jan,to Taiwan or somewhere..
Gotta start working hard,with more OTs..so i have more $$$ for my trip..hee...I CANT WAIT...
Need to travel somewhere,to relax and have fun...my passport is getting kinda bored lying somewhere in my drawer..didnt touch it for a long time..;p

My computer is infected with "spyware" and its getting on my nerves,will need to remove it later,damn irritating!
PUI PUI PUI!!!
Wish me luck my friends.

Clubbing gets empty after awhile..its good to sit down,idle and dream at times.
Taking some time off,getting a quiet moment,reflecting on things that happened and things that one did..
Do something..
Reading a good book,sipping a cup of good tea or play some good CD at home...
Its nourishing...
for the mind and soul :)
Trust me.
Try it some day....

2004-11-24T13:09:00.000-08:00

M sick..resting at home..no OT today,coz i really cant take it..fever up and down..gastric...everything coming together...WTH.....
Not in the mood to blog though... Change my blog song again...hehe...kinda bored at home..and i like this song..
My nose piercing is healing up nicely,so is my tat..hee....finally i can go swimming soon...
Anyway m looking forward to Jay's concert this Friday,going with Aaron..

me n Aaron...cute huh?

Alright,short post for now,reformatting my computer later,will post again if i have the time...

2004-11-23T13:50:00.000-08:00

Wanna know how much i changed over the past two weeks?
here u go...

Before...

Then i cut my hair alittle....

And Now...

See..now my hair is so short..........think gona take a long time to grow back my long hair...

M kinda lazy to blog now...and have yet to upload the photos we took last friday...
And oh ya,rem my old sch adidas watch?( see my prev post for pic) I got the one in white! ( belated bdae gift from my dad..) and i LOVE IT!!

2004-11-20T04:07:00.000-08:00

Sat night n m sitting at home blogging....
past 2days been crazy loads of activities..coloured my hair on thurs,pierced my nose and had this small tat now..;p
Yeah,i did that all in one day,and was ALONE in far east..
Went shopping after that to look for Donna's birthday present,walked ard for a few hrs could find anything,decided to make her a bracelet instead...
By the time i finished and wrapped d gift up,its like eh.....4am??

After work yesterday,went off with Aaron and the rest to celebrate Donna's birthday at baker's Inn...ordered my fave...warm chocolate cake....yummy...
The few of us,then went crazy with photo cum video taking sessions,everyone is so engrossed with our phones...namely the N7610.....
not convinced???????
See below for pictures!

Went off with Ju after that and decided i wanna cut my hair again...yes,u heard me right...i CUT my hair AGAIN...
this time rd,its really short..though most said it looks gd....but think i kinda lost the feminine look......=(
Caught the movie "Shutter" later at night with Aaron and Leo,surprisingly its gd,compared to those Korean / Japan horror movies..those who hasnt caught the show,do consider watching it....its nice...*^_^*
However its kinda irritating with noisy and disgusting bitches ard in the cinema.....
This grp of them,sitting next to Leo,is so damn fucking irritating that i swear they dont even know what's the show all abt....all sorts of stupid sound effects and comments....wanted so much to stuff my flats into their bloody mouths...m sorry for being such a bitch...
the girl seated next to me better stilll,burped so loudly and i swear she has got garlic breath.!!
After the movie,met up with Ju and the rest,went to Partyworld KTV for a small ktv session,though i dont fancy partyworld,prefer Kbox,i went coz its Ju's birthday..
Slept only at 4am and went to work like at 10am today......guess u guys shld noe or rather can tell that m looking like a Zombie now...

be back later...to write the "Mei Zhen Xiang" story and upload pictures taken over the last few days.....
gonna have a cup of tea now and be couch potato for awhile....eat and sit and put on weight...Lolz....latters...

2004-11-18T13:12:00.000-08:00

My muscles are aching like shit....too much of gym...too little rest....sunny sunny day....
Chalet last night was okie.food was okie...and yeah....crowd too..
came back this morning at 7am..bathed and off to ZzzZZzz...
just woke up, time read 1.08pm..
wanna go shopping for some stuff,but m kinda lazy and tired.Just feel like relaxing myself,today at home..

Oh btw,things are okie with me and aaron,and m glad..
now just one more friend to go....and think thats kinda tough......
whatever it may be....everything she did,is greatly appreciated..
gtg,m kinda lazy to blog and decided i shld just get my butt moving and go get my stuff,will update again on the chalet with photos later tonight.;p

2004-11-17T08:32:00.000-08:00

Bright and sunny morning...Now is 8.30am and here im,blogging....yes...u heard me right...m up..;p

Today gonna be a busy day,gotta rush off later to run some errands before meeting Xiaofen at 1230pm for lunch...and meeting the rest at 4pm for chalet..yes..i have decided to go for the chalet after chatting with Ju last night till 4am...though m physically tired now,m still looking forward to chalet later....so i have something to keep me occupied...at least for a day...

Lets pray that the sun be as strong tmr....so i can go tanning....going chalet and i go so much barang barang to bring...well girls...what do u expect..

I gotta go....need to pack my bag,bath and get ready.....cya guys..

2004-11-16T16:07:00.000-08:00

No OTs for me this week...m really free...wana have a good break coz its been weeks since i last had a day off n to catch up with my friends...BUT m not in the mood now,guess its not a gd sign,as it simply adds on to my unhappiness..
Guess with more time on hand=more nonsense thoughts is really true...
M wondering how is she feeling right now....hopefully better..
Wanted to just drop her an sms,to find out if she is doing fine,but stopped myself,coz i dont wanna seem like an irritant to her..when will things be back to normal again??

M kinda sick with my black hair...thinking of colouring it....
Had that sudden crazy thought to get another piercing done....prehaps my nose?
Chalet tmr at Sentosa,thinking of whether to go anot..thought of getting a tan,but looking at the weather recently,ought to be thankful that it doesnt rain....but to get gd sun??think its kinda difficult..
Sometimes i really wonder,what issit that i really need?or rather that i really want?That special someone..?more $$..?more time...?? more sleep...?
OR??
Absloutely has got no idea what i want now,guess m "lost"
Think at this point of time,i need to read..a good book...to get my mind off things.....and a real good cup of hot tea...on this cold lonely night...

Troubled..

2004-11-15T01:36:00.000-08:00

Hey people,hasnt blog for sometime,and i have changed my blog background and music again.pls be patient with me,while i try to fix up the links real soon..am really sorry.....

Things been crazy for the past 2weeks...
Had a new haircut and my hair is much shorter now,movie dates..busy with work and OTs..unless baking and cooking sessions...endless retail therapy...endless crap and nonsense...chatting till wee hrs with this new friend of mine..though m tired but m defintely enjoying every min of it..
Some pictures to go..

my new old school Adidas Watch...
-_- "
-_- "'
Liang
Joanne
Me n Samuel
Me and Shunzhi
Me n Donna
Eh...

Sabrina left the company on Sunday,though m really upset that she left,but m really happy for her,to be able to move on and do something that she really likes..

Enough of the happy thoughts..
Things hasnt been going too well these two days though..this friend,someone who i really like,someone whom i look forward to seeing everyday at work,is not herself recently and now things arent going smooth,coz of some misunderstanding.. ..Though we had cleared things up,but.....she told me she still isnt in the mood to talk to anyone,and that she will talk to me again when she is in the mood...
I seriously hope its just that she isnt in a very good mood,and not coz of what happened...

M kinda upset abt what happened,coz it isnt easy to have someone whom you can talk with abt everything under the sun....

I treasured the friendship we shared...

I need to know what to do....

Coz its killing me....

and it really hurts...

Jennifer's Birthday 16/10/04

2004-11-01T05:58:00.000-08:00

This is a late post,today is the 1st Nov,and jen's birthday is long over on th 16th Oct.
We had dinner at Wuruku Japanese Restaurant with some of ex-starhubbers,followed by clubbing at Dbl O.

Some photos we took...ermm.....coz was really bo liao with my 7610 during lunch,at Haw Par Centre....

4 of us,trying to squeeze into my cam...-_-

Sabrina,Me and Joanne...i like this pic..*^_^*

Me and Birthday Girl,Jennifer.
Happy Birthday Girl!

Me and Sabrina

Me and joanne again....

Acting Stupid during Dinner..

My 20th Bday~

2004-10-11T05:43:00.000-07:00

Hey All!
I am back!Hows everything?Just got back from Bangkok last night,and boy,its so DAMN fun...
This gonna be a long post,so pls read only when ya very free ya...
Had a crazy Bdae celebration last Tuesday 05/10/04 with some colleagues and friends...had dinner at Yaki Yuki Cineleisure,its not too bad..well,shall cut everything short,think what you guys interested in be the pics right...here you go....

Fred,Chef of the night

ermm...-_-"

My "birthday present",courtesy of Fred. =)

Jolene and Fred

Veron,Yang and Alex...(noticed the way Alex smile??dont u think he looks like zhao cai mao??)

Me and Liang @ Kbox

Me and Yang

Birthday Present from a friend..

Thanks people,really had fun with you guys.Thanks for the Swatch watch Ju,i love it!
Not forgetting the vouchers from Samuel,Sabrina,Jen and Joanne..plus d 7610 Hp casing i got from my Team Leaders..Love you guys~

Thursday 07/10/04
Flight Number: TG422
Departure Time: 0745

Supposed to meet the rest at Changi Airport @ 6.15am,however the night before was at Liquid Room and Zouk,celebrating my birthday with a group of friends and didnt end until like 3.15am?
Imagine the feeling of having 2jugs of beer,7 vodka lime,3 lychee martini,1 stout and thats not all,plus one WHOLE bday cake(fyi,its a 2kg cake) in your stomach @ 3.15am in the morning,that kinda shitty feeling and instead of zzz,u gotta pack,coz be leaving Singapore in like 3hrs time??
Ju was no better,she was still packing when i reach home @3.30am...We decided that we need to eat and she will want a smoke before meeting up with Yus and Aaron @ the airport(she is the only smoker you see)
Reached the airport at 5.15am,and we had a coffee at this cafe in terminal 1,and it sucks!BIG BIG TIME.
Yucky attitude we got from that stupid woman with wayang makeup at the cashier.Urghh,she thought she is so damn good looking with all the thick mascara,blue eyeshadow,red lipstick..Had that sudden urge to tell her to stay at home,coz at 0515 in the morning its scary to see such sight.Haiz...sometimes they juz dont seem to understand the simple logic of natural is beauty.

Me and Ju,taken outside the airport...Look fresh right..:P

After the yucky drink and smoke,we sat ard waiting for the rest,when i received a sms from Aaron,saying that he might be late coz he juz stepped out of his house......both of us was like.....@_@
Anyway,when he reached,it was like 0610.we sat ard for awhile before Yus arrived and we did checked in.
All the crew onboard cannot make it! and i really mean CANNOT.
Aunties look alike crew...stuck up crew....u name it,they have it....Ask for bread,said dont have...Ask for milk,it never came.Haiz,sad to say,i am rather disappointed with the svc that they are providing.

After arriving at BKK,drama again,we cant find that stupid van thats supposed to pick us up,finally managed to get to the hotel,and check in.Wanted connecting rooms,but was told that will need to wait for 30mins as they will need to do housekeeping 1st,fair enough,we went off shopping and left our luggage at the lobby.
By the time we went back to the hotel,was kinda upset to find that the rooms arent what they promised.As usual,reasons they gave were pretty lame,but none of us has got the energy to dispute....jut praying hard that we be able to change our room the next day..

Dinner at S &P,followed by a little shopping at World Trade Centre,then back to the hotel as all of us was kinda tired.
Back in the room,Ju and i decided to visit the night markets,as its such a waste of time to stay in the hotel and its kinda early to sleep......we got a taxi from the hotel and went ahead to Suan Lum Night Brazaa..walked and walked till like 1am bkk time,before taking a Tuk tuk to Papong,and continued our spree..
By the time we were back in the hotel,it was like 3am in the morning,and i was so tired that i fell asleep while holding my supper aka my burger from Burger King.-_-"

Day 2 ~~ Shopping
Supposed to be up and ready by like 7.30am bkk time,but me and Juliana overslept!was too tired after the few sleepless nights i guess.
Had breakfast with Yus and Ju at the hotel ( noticed i didnt mention Aaron??) coz he was too tired and decided to sleep in instead.haha....after breakfast,we managed to drag him out of his bed and went to do a little shopping ard Patunam Market.Bought this pair of jeans that i really like!hehe....
Its off to Suan Lum Night Market again,coz Aaron wanted to buy the lightbulb thingy that me and Ju bought the night before.Its really nice,will post a pic of it okie....

09/10/04
My Birthday!

Was out shopping at d weekend market the whole day,and by the time we went back to the hotel,it was like...ermm.....5plus.Me and juliana are total gone case with the stuff we bought,we bought so many tops,that we might not wear,well its cheap,so we just had to buy -_-"

Back at the hotel,Aaron came knocking on the door,asking us to dressed up alittle for dinner.All i had were shorts,capris and slippers?Ended up wearing new stuff we bought.;p
Will upload the photos we took in the hotel ya,photos are with Aaron..
Anyway dinner at Hard Rock was nice,amb and everyting,not forgetting the Vodka,BLOODY MARY..Eeks..
Aaron went off meeting a friend leaving the 3 of us there,listening to the liveband perform.
Not long after,Aaron called saying that he be clubbing with his thai friend Phing,age limit is 20 asking if we wanna follow.So off we went to this gay club.Its so fun,seeing all the pretty boys.Thats the only place that we won't get molested.heehee..Me and Ju even stand on the platform with a few gays and started dancing that...its wild..-_-
The next time i know,Phing's friend said he really like me and Ju,asking if we are twins,and that we looked like Chinadolls.What an experience.

Pretty boys and...ermm....unglam us

2004-09-28T07:12:00.000-07:00

Yet another day is almost gone,hope your day was gd!
Mine was alright though at work this morning till about 3pm then waited for Jolene to finish some stuff and walked over to Plaza Sing to...look at alarm clocks!yes,both of us wana get alarm clock,esp me coz...*think we can skip this part*
Ended not buying any and simply roamed around.Went to Spotlights coz Jolene wanted to get this brush lookalike thingy(forgot what its called) so that she can brush her clothes,thats infested by her rabbits' fur,tested that thing there for awhile and she decided not to get it again(yes again coz this is not the 1st time we looked at it!,Jolene can u pls make up your mind?Hehee..)
Oh ya,the other day jen actually sent us this like questionaire kinda thing to us,and insisted that we do it...Its DAMN BLOODY LONG fyi.....
Well here it goes....

Mine...

[[+........A LITTLE ABOUT YOU........+]]
FULL NAME: Ong Mingli Hazel
BIRTHDAY: 09/10/1984
AGE: 19, going 20
BORN: Mount Elizabeth
WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF? Losing my loved ones.
YOUR PERFECT MAN/WOMAN: have yet to really think abt that
EMBARRASING MOMENT: walked out of the house without realising that i erm...arent..wearing...*censored*
FUTURE KIDS' NAME(S): Kinda early to think of that now.
YOUR BEST FRIEND(S): Yup, two in fact
SIBLINGS: 3
DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR FAMILY? Yup..
EVER HATED A PERSON IN YOUR FAMILY: no
[[+........FAVOURITE..........+]]
ICE CREAM: mint,cookies and cream...in fact i eat all flavours!
VEGETABLE: i love all vegs!
FAST FOOD: Mos
ALCOHOL: No fave,i drink almost everything
DRINK: Green tea,coffee.
moVIE: god,too many to list...
TV PROGRAMME: I seldom watch TV..
ACTOR & ACTRESS: no one.
BANDS/SINGER: Jay and Maroon 5.....
PLACE TO VISIT: My room!?haha
COLOURS: Black,red,white,purple
SPORTS: swimming
ANIMAL: Dogs.
BRAND OF SHOES: Pretty fit,Xodus...
CAREER: not so sure..
SHAMPOO: Herbal Essence
SOAP: Dove
DAY/NIGHT: Night
SUMMER/WINTER: Summer! i love the sun
SUBJECT: Accounts.( BORING I NOE)
LACE/SATIN: Lace
WHO KNOWS ALL OF YOUR SECRETS: Myself
WHO DO YOU WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF UR LIFE WITH: Of coz the one i love..
[[+ ........HAVE YOU EVER........+]]
LOVED SOME1 SO MUCH IT MADE YOU CRY: yes
SKINNY DIPPED? No
PLAYED STRIP POKER? No
PLAYED TRUTH OR DARE? Ya.
FLASHED SOMEONE? No
MOONED SOMEONE: ????
KISSED SOMEONE YOU DIDN'T KNOW? Yup,by accident.Kana saboh
BEEN IN A PHYSICAL FIGHT? Yes,with my Brother
BEEN IN A POLICE CAR? no
BEEN IN A PLANE? yes.
COME CLOSE TO DYING? aye....dont think so.
BEEN IN A SAUNA? Yup,i love it!
IN A HOT TUB? Yup
IN THE OCEAN? Yup
CRIED: of coz
CUT YOUR HAIR: what stupid qns is this?
WORN A SKIRT: yes
BEEN MEAN: yes
MET SOMEONE NEW: defintely
TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON: Yup
MISSED SOMEONE: Yup
HUGGED SOMEONE: Yup
WISHED UPON A STAR: Nope
LAUGHED UNTIL YOU CRIED: ya,in fact always!
WATCHED A SUNRISE/SUNSET: yes
SPENT QUALITY TIME ALONE: Ya,and i enjoy that
READ A BOOK FOR FUN: yes
HOW ARE YOU TODAY? Sick
ARE YOU WEARING YOUR PYJAMAS: What do u thinK???i am answering calls and doing this super duper long *$^@$#^@($%*
ARE YOU TALKING TO SOMEONE ONLINE? yup
CLASSICAL? Violin i guess
SOAP OPERAS? Nah
AEROPLANE? ?
AMUSEMENT PARKS? ya
[[+........ WHAT IS............+]]
YOUR GOOD LUCK CHARM? Dont have any
YOUR BEDROOM LIKE? Messy!
CRUSH? Nope.
YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION? Erm,my soft toy Tigger,that is taller than me. ..and my collection of toys and watches.
[[+.......HAVE YOU EVER HAD........../ARE YOU A......+]]
GOOD STUDENT? not so.
GOOD ACTOR/ACTRESS? haha,nv tried,but dun think so
GOOD DANCER? not really
GOOD STORYTELLER?: Prehaps?
STITCHES? Yup
HAD A NOSE BLEED? Yup.
CANCER? Nope
SURGERY? Yup,on my tummy
SOMEONE BESIDES YOUR FAMILY SAY THEY LOVE YOU? Yes
SOMEONE PUNCH YOU? Nope.
[[+........DO YOU........+]]
WET THE BED? maybe when i was young?
COLLECT ANYTHING? Yup!Watches...shoes...magazines..
LIKE TO SING?: Yup
LIKE TO SHOP?: Of Coz..
LIKE PARTIES? Yup.
GET INTO TROUBLE A LOT? No..
[[+........WOULD YOU......+]]
EAT A LIVE HAMSTER FOR A MILLION $$$? NO! I Love hamsters!
GO TO A HANSON CONCERT IF YOU HAD A FREE TICKET: Nope.
SOMETHING PIERCED? Yup..5 earholes.and used to have one navel.
KILL SOMEONE YOU DIDN'T KNOW FOR 15 BILLION DOLLAR?? NonOno
IF OFFERED YOU A SMALL PART IN A MOVIE WOULD YOU ACCEPT? Dont think so,arent gd in that.

Haha....its so long rite...okie,admit that was kinda bored thats why did this..hehe...
Anyway,if you guys realised,i been changing my blog audio like...ermm...everyday.Previously was "This Love" by Maroon...now its the song by Ocean,"Gu Dan Bei Ban Qiu"...hehe..sorry really need to do something at home.maybe next time you guys then let me know what u guys wanna hear,i will try to upload them?No worries..its FOC....

Recently think i been very crappy and full of nonsense leh,die lah,got to take note.otherwise might just become another old maid ..k i am just crapping..ignore me okie..
Wanted to upload pics,but i really damn lazy leh,thats why my "snapshots" corner,is kinda of..."bald"

Aye,think i gonna stop posting liao,wanna go do some updates to my linkies...huggies..

Boring Day

2004-09-27T05:18:00.000-07:00

Well,actually nothing to blog today leh.Haha..As usual,supposed to be working 11am shift,woke up only like at 9.30am.Imagine,i gotta bath,washup,take the train from Sgoon to Dhoby Ghaut and walked to office..Rushed like mad,coz i do not wanna spend $$$ on cab again.*remember?i am going bkk NEXT WK*
Wanted so much to go get my Mango Top today,but worked only ended at 4pm instead of usual 3pm.By the time i am done,my tummy was growling like nobody's biz..had lunch with Joanne,Samuel and Sabrina at this cafe near my office.Had beehoon,with chicken wing plus wu xiang.And can you believe that i was still feeling very hungry after that,so much so that i almost wanted to get a EBI rice burger from Mos..Yes,pls...call me a pig.
BUT BUT BUT...cant blame me though,coz the last meal i had was..ermm..yesterday breakfast of beehoon and its only half a packet,coz shared with my younger sis....yeah,so its only normal right to feel so hungry.. -_-"Okok...i admit,i am just trying to make myself better for eating so much okie...
Now am back at home,my headache is killing me!It has been there like since 3days ago!?Been getting headaches very often recently,and its coming on and off,dont know what's wrong,even panadol doesnt help.Eeks,hope i arent gonna fall sick..otherwise MC again...*touch wood*

K,i gtg..need to do some skipping...before i put back that few kgs i lost ( yes,i lost 3kg..hehe..) But before i go,had just add some stuff into my blog,including one of my fave song..hope you guys enjoy okie?

Rain Rain Go Away....

2004-09-23T22:39:00.000-07:00

Yo!Hows everything??see i promised to blog more often and i am doing it already..hehe
Just back not too long ago,accompany Juliana after work to see the doctor i visited previously in Hougang,and when the doctor saw me he was like -_-
After which we went to shop ard.Wanted to get a pair of flats from Charles and Keith,so that i can use my 20% discount voucher,BUT seriously,i cant find anything i like.All cannot make it! S***
Haiz its always that case,when i wanna get something,i cant.And when i dont want or when i run low on $$ i see plenty.LIFE IS SO UNFAIR! But,its okie,going Bangkok soon,shop till i drop,shop till i am broke...coz things are so dirt cheap there....

Dropped the idea of getting flats and both of us started walking up and down,looking for cigarettes.Yes,coz Ju only smoke Texa 5,and you cant get it everywhere,only those ulu sami mama shops..End up she bought Menthol Light instead.
There is practically nothing much to do at Compasspoint we even went into Courts,and saw this salesman...playing the piano...ermm...but seriously,its either our ears got prob,otherwise he must be pretending to play,coz we practically CANT HEAR ANYTHING!

After roaming ard for 45mins,me and Ju finally settled for a coffee session at Starbucks,Compasspoint.
Tried this new drink from Starbucks,its a orange and passionfruit drink or something,isnt really fantastic its too sweet to my liking.Ordered a pasta salad to share,since both of us on diet...
This is how it looks like....

It tasted weird,and end up we only like ate a few mouthful?

Got abit Boh liao...started taking photos with my 7610..

guess who is this??*camera shy?!*

Oh yeah, i was supposed to explain on the "twin" sister thingy,nearly forgot.Well,for those who know both me and my "twin,you guys will know what i am talking abt.For the rest,haha,actually my "twin" is Juliana,and nono,we are not blood related,just that alot of ppl been saying we looked really alike,even when we went out for makan or whatever,those who dont know us,commented on the same thing as well.
Speaking of makan,it reminds me of the incident at Mac,we were like buy food together then this mac crew( i am sorry to say,but he is ugly) started asking if we are twins and making all sorts of stupid jokes..(Obviously,he doesnt know that a hungry woman is an angry woman,AND its TWO women now) We were like -_- while he continued to entertain himself.WTF!?cant he just hurry up and serve me?
The best part is,i went back to the same Mac abt 1week later,and he told me to send regards to my 'twin' and how come we arent together ??He really seem to be enjoying it and just stood there talking away..Hello?? Even twins do not stick together everyday,u think what?we are Siamese twins??*Faint*
I practically wanted to just squeeze that Fillet O Fish of mine into his bloody mouth!

Well,enough of my shit...
think you guys must be curious how she looks right...

Ready.......

Here you go.......

*This is Juliana

And...

*This is yours truly me

Haha,how???Any difference?Think we look more alike in real life compared to photos though.Think prehaps its coz our hairstyles are similar..?or coz even our size,haha is abt the same?
Had durian mooncakes from Marriot just now,for those who had yet to try,its yummy.Imagine,the mooncake practically melts in your mouth..and the durian smells *heaven*However,for those who hates durian,you guys will defintely hate this,coz the smell is really very "durianful"haha..
Had given my friend two of the green tea mooncakes from Marriot,and according to him its very good..Mine is still lying in the fridge at home,somehow all at home prefer durian..
*hmm...will try it tmr*

Have got alot of stuff to write,but i am getting lazy...think its time to be a couch potato...cya..

My 1st entry after 5mths....

2004-09-22T20:16:00.000-07:00

Firstly will like to apologise to all,really sorry that i went MIA for so long.But now i am back,with a new blog.So people, pls pls bear with me,while i try to fix up the links asap ya.Coz kinda busy recently.Hee..
Well,time for some updates,as usual,been busy with work.( what's new?,anyway OT $$ is too gd to resist..) Also been trying to meet up as many friends as possible,esp those who i hasnt seen for a long time...i missed you guys!Esp to Xiaofen,so sorry girl...
Life is crazy.Shopping trips,chalets,KTV sessions,late night suppers( i put on 4kg!)
not to mention,been to Bangkok in July,spent like 1K,best part,i am going Bangkok again...yes..u heard me right..in fact its just like in 2weeks time!.
I simply cant resist the shopping and food there.-_-
And its gonna be fun this time round,coz i be going with my crazy "twin" ( will update on y she is my twin..)
Went for my body check-up yesterday,guess what???i put on weight!i was like @_@ when the Doc actually told me that i put on a freaking 4kg!WTF???
Anyway,i am adopting a new lifestyle,which means no more late night supper trips...no more KFC,no more Punggol nasi lemak,no most imptly, more crispy chicken!( sob..sob..)
People wish me good luck okie!hehe..
well shall upload some of the craziness soon..i promise..Love you guys!

~*S.H.A.T.T.E.R.E.D*~